Lethal Play Page 2

  He’d assumed his most enduring position, leaning forward with arms resting on his knees, puppy dog eyes pleading for attention. His mother the bitch narrowed her eyes to the hint of a cookie duster sprouting from his upper lip.

  “You need to shave, again,” she said, “which is what you get for picking up a razor when you were barely twelve”

  “Twelve and a half, which Dad didn’t think was too early to start.”

  “Neither of you thought about asking me.”

  “It was a guy thing, Mom.”

  A milestone for Matt, one of many and particularly bittersweet for Francesca—the first time she hadn’t been consulted. Ben had usurped her authority, taken over the role she’d cherished since Matt’s birth.

  “Don’t make me repeat myself,” she said. “Get rid of the fuzz.”

  “I will, I will, but not this very minute. Okay?”

  She waved him off. Matt usually kept his word, especially when he wanted something in return. About his cell phone, he knew better than to ask for its return any time soon. She’d confiscated the damn thing after he ran up five hundred dollars in text messages, most of them following Ben’s accident and not with some girl since he hadn’t reached that stage yet. So much for the miracle of electronics, he could’ve communicated the old-fashioned way, a one-on-one-in-your-face. With her, except she didn’t feel up to chitchat. Maybe tomorrow, but that’s what she thought yesterday.

  “Now about Pegasi,” he said with a patient voice as opposed to the inside or outside voice she’d taught him ages ago. “I heard two of the players aren’t coming back and the coach might cut another two, which means I stand a pretty good chance of making the team.”

  Using her thumbs and forefingers, she treated her drooping eyelids to an ever-so-gentle massage. “Do we have to talk soccer now, with me enduring the most god-awful headache of my entire life?”

  “At this point all I need from you is an okay, nothing more. If it was the other way around, Dad would’ve … sorry, I didn’t mean that the way it sounded.”

  Of course he did, and Ben would’ve backed him all the way. “Leave your father out of this. Is Pegasi what you want?”

  “More than anything else. Playing for Pegasi was our dream—Dad’s and mine.”

  “In that case, go for it with all your heart.” The words came from her mouth but belonged to Ben, a phrase he often used during his mini pep talks.

  Matt must’ve recognized it too, judging from the smile lighting his face. “Thanks, Mom. You won’t regret this, I promise.”

  She couldn’t think of anything else to say and was relieved when he got up and headed for the kitchen, probably to raid whatever was left in the fridge once brimming with sympathy food from friends and neighbors. The variety of calorie-laden pies and cakes fighting for space on the kitchen counter had also dwindled to a precious few. With any luck and maybe one more care package Francesca figured she could go another two days without having to open a can of hot tamales or what passed for ravioli. Good thing Matt and Ria weren’t picky eaters. Nor was … had Ben been picky, as long as she didn’t go overboard with the fats and starches. In fact, he’d often raved about her cooking, even the occasional disasters marking their seventeen years of marriage.

  She cranked her head back to the TV—only three more hours until bedtime, and the security of Ben’s pillow. She’d changed their bed sheets after the accident but couldn’t bring herself to replace his pillowcase. That final morning he’d left his scent behind, just for her, and she had no intentions of losing what little remained of him until she was ready to let go.

  CHAPTER 4

  Two days later on a Saturday afternoon so cold it required nothing less than her down-filled jacket and wool knit cap, Francesca drove Matt to the first of three tryouts for Pegasi United. Ria had insisted on tagging along, having refused to spend any more time with young friends who, according to Ria, had their own stupid agendas. No one spoke during the twenty-minute drive from Richmond Heights to Show Me Soccer Park, which suited Francesca fine. But as soon as she pulled Sybil, their faithful SUV, into a parking space, the sound of seatbelts loosening their restrains broke through the silence. Then came the labored effort of sliding doors, perhaps Sybil needed a shot of WD40. Another task of Ben’s Francesca would have to assume.

  “Are you nervous?” Ria asked Matt as they got out.

  “Do I look nervous, Pickle Face?”

  “No, but maybe you should. This is the big time. Somebody has to get cut.”

  “But not me.”

  Ria, ever cautious but still giving encouragement. Francesca stepped onto the asphalt and locked the doors with her remote. “Don’t forget, Matt: I’m leaving early with Ria for her gymnastics class.”

  “No problem,” he said, slinging his bag over one shoulder. “I’ll get a ride home.”

  Along the sidelines of the practice field mother and daughter made themselves invisible as they sat on folding canvas chairs, Francesca hiding behind a pair of dark, oversized sunglasses and Ria turning the pages of a paperback at predictable intervals.

  “Another book?” Francesca asked, neither hoping for nor expecting much of an answer.

  “My fourth in ten days.” Ria never took her eyes off the page. “This one’s a dumb story about some girl without a father. My teacher thought it would help.”

  Right, as if any book could make a difference. “She should’ve checked with me first.”

  Ria peered over the top of pink-rimmed eyeglasses. “I told her you wouldn’t mind, that you were dealing with your own problems.”

  “What did I tell you about that?”

  “It’s okay, Mom. My teacher’s pretty cool.” She reached over, patted Francesca’s arm with one hand and turned another page with the other.

  Grief, in a few short weeks the Canelli survivors had found ways to absorb the aftershock: Matt with his soccer, Ria with her books, and Francesca in a slump, as Ben would’ve said. Wherever he was—Francesca wasn’t sure if she still believed in heaven or in God—but wherever Ben was now, he must be sending his paternal vibes, demanding to know when Ria had become the adult and Francesca, the child. Not that Ria seemed to mind, or perhaps she was marking time, waiting for the right opportunity to express her dismay, which may not come for another twenty or thirty years. At forty-one Francesca was still waiting for that time with her mother.

  Ria adjusted her glasses, turned another page. The roots of her hair, blond since the toddler years, were now turning as dark as Francesca’s and Matt’s. In another year or so her daughter would evolve into a full-fledged brunette. Sooner if Ria made good on her threat to whack off the long ponytail, in spite of a harsh warning Francesca had given the previous year after Ria shaved off her bangs, leaving a hairline of awkward stubbles she succeeded in hiding with a comb-over for several weeks. Keeping Ria’s hair down to her waist had been Ben’s idea. So had the ear-length bob, designed to swing across Francesca’s cheeks whenever she turned her head.

  “It fits your personality,” Ben had told her, “a kind of sophisticated innocence.”

  “In other words, an oxymoron,” she’d replied.

  “Yes, but you’re my oxymoron.”

  Ben always had a way with words, not so with Francesca. Rather than say the wrong thing, she kept her mouth shut.

  “Matt’s on the pitch,” Ria said.

  Right—the pitch, not the field, would she ever get that right. Francesca watched him sprint toward the mouth of the goal, along with nine other hopefuls, their sturdy legs encased in the warmth of Under Armour, their heads lifted high against the biting wind of early February. He finished second; good or bad, Francesca didn’t know.

  “Not bad,” Ria said. “Matt ran with the best.”

  Thank you, my daughter the blond mind reader. From the corner of one eye, Francesca caught a glimpse of another blond, her shoulder-length locks bouncing in rhythm with each footstep bringing her closer. Only one soccer mom walked with the assurance of he
r kid never getting cut from the team—Sunny Meredith, the coach’s wife. During the previous soccer seasons when Matt played with Thunderbirds, Francesca had only known Sunny by sight and from a distance, her husband Rex too. She first spoke to the faceless Ken and Barbie couple at Ben’s wake and still shuddered at the memory of them hugging her tighter than old friends at a high school reunion. Rex had pumped Matt’s hand, all the while encouraging him to still come out for the team, as if Ben’s tragedy was nothing more than an inconvenient disruption to the precious pursuit of soccer. This, of course, made perfect sense to everyone outside the immediate Canelli family. Or maybe Francesca was the only oddball. Get over it, Ben would’ve said. Don’t expect the world to stop just because you want to jump off.

  Sunny hovered over her. A whiff of musky perfume assaulted Francesca’s nose before the pressure of Sunny’s pampered hand assaulted hers. What was it with this touchy-feely stuff, not only from Rex and Sunny but every other person who felt the need to connect with a widow before her time. A different vital statistic box had come into play for her to check, she’d gone from single to married to this, having bypassed divorced, which would never have been an option for her and Ben. ‘Til death do us part, they had vowed, erroneously believing it meant ‘til old age took them within a week of each other.

  Sunny squeezed again, this time harder.

  “Francesca, so good to see you out and about, even in this dreadful weather. I do wish I could offer some encouragement about Matt but to be perfectly honest, I have no idea what Rex has in mind. You know, in terms of what players he’ll need to strengthen the Pegasi roster.”

  “Yes, of course.” Focusing on the pitch, she eased her hand away from Sunny’s. The woman needed spread her good cheer elsewhere, around those who would appreciate it.

  “You’ll have to excuse my mom,” Ria said. “She’s not herself.”

  Sunny straightened up. “Don’t you have some cartwheels to turn, little—”

  “Ria, my name’s Ria.”

  Do something, Francesca, show your mom stuff. She lifted her head to Sunny’s amber sunglasses, and spoke to a row of long thick lashes. “We’re only staying for a short while; Ria has gymnastics.”

  Sunny flipped her hair; a smile crossed her perky lips. “Ah, those were the days; gymnastics paid my way through college. But I digress and don’t want to keep you, knowing how busy you must be.” She knelt, took control of Francesca’s hand again, this time patting it. “There is one thing, a rather awkward situation I feel compelled to mention.” She leveled a discreet forefinger toward the pitch. “That Hispanic boy over there, the one dribbling the ball—”

  “Is Jeff Manuel,” Ria said without looking up. “Matt already told us.”

  “I’m so sorry, Francesca. What with his father driving the van—”

  “Please, Sunny. I can’t talk about it.” Not to you or anybody, Francesca wanted to say. Hector Manuel had already made his guilt-ridden visit to the house, wept as he explained how he’d been delivering the Post Dispatch that fatal morning and hadn’t seen Ben until the van actually hit him. Two eyewitnesses, both outside collecting their newspapers, had corroborated Hector’s account to the police. Given the circumstances, any possibility of a financial settlement seemed remote, according to Mort Gellman. Maybe she should talk to another attorney, one who specialized in personal injury. Of course Ben had carried life insurance, which, true to those hard-sell agent pitches, didn’t seem nearly enough now when they actually needed it. There’d never be enough … money. How crass of her, dwelling on the monetary value of her husband’s life, as if the sum of it had been reduced to a financial statement, a postscript to his once vital statistics. Still, Ben prided himself on being a practical man. He would’ve understood.

  “About the tryouts,” Francesca said to the empty space next to her chair, only then realizing Sunny had taken her good will elsewhere. No sign of Ria either. Francesca scanned the sidelines, her gaze moving to the bleaches where she located Ria behind a cluster of parents, no doubt getting the lowdown on various players. Another Ben trait, except Ben would’ve been participating in the discussion, ever respectful of Matt’s toughest competitors, those who made him a better player.

  Francesca turned her attention back to the pitch. She counted twenty-five boys, all gathered around Rex Meredith. The muscular forty-something stood no taller than many of the players, including Matt, who at five foot seven and according to his doctor was due for another growth spurt. Rex stood with a span of ten inches separating his feet. While talking, he balanced a soccer ball on the tip of his fingers and then held the ball between his hands, as if he were holding the athletic destiny of each boy. One by one and without hesitating, Rex divided the boys into two scrimmage teams. Francesca recognized several players from Thunderbolt—Ryan Masters, Eric Stegman, and Jack Salina. Both Eric and Jack exchanged high fives with Matt when they wound up on the same side. From Francesca’s limited perspective, the teams appeared evenly divided, at least according to size. As for ability, she was in no position to judge. Two or three excellent players could make the rest of a team look better. Two or three so-so players could make the rest of the team look worse.

  “I’m back,” Ria said, turning a cartwheel before she sat down.

  “Next time, don’t leave without telling me.”

  “I did, but you weren’t listening.”

  “Sorry, kiddo. I’m trying, really I am.” Francesca checked her watch. “If we hurry, we can still be on time for your gymnastics. You know how the coach feels about late-comers.”

  “But, Mom, don’t you want to hear about Pegasi?”

  Francesca got up, started to fold her chair. “Sure, while we drive to the gym.”

  “Don’t make me go, Mom. Not today.”

  Another Ria cope-out, but Francesca didn’t feel up to arguing, nor the sympathetic gestures she was bound to receive at a second location. She sighed and sat back down. “Okay, bleacher girl, so what did you learn?”

  “Well, about those four openings on the team, figure on maybe five or six ‘cause not all the guys came back. At least that’s what John Aquinas told Clark.”

  “You know these people?”

  “Sort of, Clark’s a lawyer and John an orthodontist, pediatrics if we ever need one.”

  “You’re teeth are fine.”

  “Right, if you say so. But I asked John and he said you should give him a call.”

  “Ria!”

  “Not really, give me some credit. Anyway, Clark is married to the white lady sitting—don’t look at the bleachers. They’ll know I’m talking about them. Besides, they’re pretty cool. Their son is—”

  “The team’s only biracial goalie, that I figured out on my own.”

  “See the redhead sliding into Matt, he’s Payton Meredith.”

  “The coach’s son, I remember him from when Thunderbolt played against Pegasi.” Matt and Paton were battling for the ball that eventually went to another player.

  “And the Mexican-looking kid who’s dribbling the ball now lives with the Merediths. His name is Angel. You know, An-hil in Spanish, but everybody calls him Angel, as in the opposite of devil. Ian Shepherd—he’s the assistant coach’s son—just kicked the ball to Payton. ” Ria hopped up. “Oh my gosh! Matt just stole the ball away from Payton. Matt’s passing it to Marcus Aquinas. Marcus passes it back to Matt.”

  Francesca leaned forward. “Move, I can’t see.”

  “Matt’s going for a goal. Shi-oot—sorry ‘bout the slip, Mom, Grady Greenwood blocked Matt’s shot. Did I tell you, Grady’s dad sells cars? His mom teaches fourth grade, at some private school in West County. And if you ever need a plumber, call Maurice Elliot for the team discount—if Matt makes the cut, which I think he will. The Eliot kid’s a pretty good defender.”

  Ria’s chatter lulled Francesca into a peaceful vacuum. It ended along with the scrimmage when the boys trotted off the pitch. Matt broke away from the pack and headed toward her and Ria. Standin
g before them, he slapped his hands together in a warming motion. Whatever he might’ve been thinking didn’t register on his face.

  “You’ve still got a better than even chance, right?” Ria said.

  “Same as the other guys, Pickle Face.” He stopped the hand warming and yanked on her ponytail. “Aren’t you supposed to be at gymnastics?”

  “Some of us still have issues.”

  “Knock it off,” Francesca said. “Both of you.”

  “Can we give two guys a ride home, I sort of promised, okay?”

  “Do I know them?” How stupid of her to ask. Ben wouldn’t have cared who they were. He used to haul kids wherever they needed to go, just as other parents hauled Matt.

  He spoke with a touch of irritation. “No, you don’t know them but Ian’s dad is the assistant coach. He couldn’t make it today. These guys live in the same neighborhood, not too far from here.”

  “Of course I will.”

  “Yuck!” Ria stuck a finger in her mouth, faking a gag. “In other words I have to sit in the back with the sweat hogs.”

  “Shut up, Pickle Face. Here they come.”

  “Well, whoop-de-do,” Ria said, lowering her voice. “Get a load of the rich boys.”

  Ria did have an eye for sportswear, from the low end to the high. Judging from their confident stride to their designer clothes and gym bags, Francesca figured these kids were out of Matt’s league, at least from a financial standpoint. But on the soccer field, where it really counted, talent would reign supreme, at least that’s what Ben often said, and what she wanted to believe.

  “Just watch your mouth, Pickle Face.”

  Matt wrapped his arm around Ria’s neck, locked her in a mock stranglehold. She stuck out her tongue, pretending to strangle.

  “Enough, already,” Francesca said.

  To which Ria replied in a Donald Duck voice. “Hey, I’m the one forced to suck up their sweat.”

  “Not in this weather.” Matt shoved her aside and put on his best smile for his new friends. “Mom, meet Ted Logan and Ian Shepherd. They’ve been playing with Pegasi for five years.”